
 I will try not to abandon you again blog.  Lots of things have happened since I wrote on you last.  Some good, some bad.  All life changing.  As I change, I find I am the optimist that I always knew I was.  Dealing with hard times, and disappointment there really is no room for defeatism.  I thought that I would buckle and slip into the silent, depressive state I've romanticised ever since I read the 
Bell Jar and the like when I was a teen.
  Instead I was just, alright.  The logical part of my brain, that I've down-played even to myself, stepped up.  It filled my head with all sort of smart observances and practical ideas.  So I am here.  Changed, but still myself.  More so some may say.  There are still tears that come from no where, but they are further and farther between.  It seems  I am strong.  I have found that in the face of loss there is something to be gained and that is reassuring.
 
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I love you!
Yes, you are very strong...and beautiful and wonderful and most of all, my Em. I am so proud of you. Real hugs soon!
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